It has been quite some time since either Minxy or I posted here on the blog. Now there are good reasons for that, mostly coming from myself.
I previously shared that I was between jobs and contemplating my place in the industry. I found a position shortly after my last post and have been there for three months now. One thing I will note is that I haven’t had the feelings of regret I had with previous job changes. It is a good feeling.
Not only has my employment status improved since my last blog post, but my mental healthy has improved as well. I have been seeing a psychologist and made leaps and bounds in terms of how I think. I still have off days, days where I give too many fucks about the wrong things. But I am learning to stop giving fucks about the wrong things. I am learning that I need to put myself ahead of everyone else. I can’t support and look after others if I don’t look after myself first and foremost.
It begins with saying no to others and yes to yourself
In terms of my physical health and libido, it still works under certain circumstances. It definitely works on PQS adventures, but the minute it is just Minxy & I, it disappears. However I am making progress. I have lost 10 kilograms using a calorie restricted diet. There is still 30 more I need to lose, but one step at a time, right?
I still feel that I am a fucked up individual that is recovering, but I am further along the recovery path than I was 3 months ago. One day, maybe one day I will be normal again and not feel that I am a fucked up individual.