Can I tell you what frustrates me most? Being horny at the worst possible times.
I have previously written about the loss of my sex drive. While I haven’t seen my GP to get a medical opinion, I have noticed that it has returned somewhat. The reason behind it’s partial return is unknown. It could be a result of the cooler showers I have been having lately, or it could be the placebo effect as a result of the cooler showers, or it could just be a result of a changed mental state.
While I don’t want to sound like I am complaining about my sex drive returning, I do want to complain about my sex drive being elevated at the worst possible times. Examples of time when it should have been elevated but wasn’t include:
- When Minxy is home and naked wandering the house;
- When Minxy is lying next to me in bed reaching over for a little rub and tug
- Viewing porn that used to get me aroused
However, lately it has been elevated at the worst possible times, one fine example is yesterday. Minxy was at work, and I was horny and in the mood for a little bedroom action, but she was far away and out of reach. In addition to last night, multiple times over the last week or two, I have been in the mood for a butt plug while at work, but by the time I get home, that mood has disappeared down a black hole and nowhere to be seen.
So I am still wishing that my sex drive would return to its former glory, a position where I could stand to attention when needed, and be in a state of arousal at the right moments rather than the wrong ones.
So whether my sex drive is physiological or mental, I hope my current state is the just the start of returning to an old normal.