I hate my body!! Even after the internet tells me to embrace the skin I am in, to accept the lumps, bumps and imperfections. I still hate my body!!
However at the same time, I have no desire to change the body I have, to eat healthier, to exercise more (or even to move more), to do something about my weight and ugly body.
I am an enigma at best, or just a pain in the ass loser!
I know that you and I have talked quite a bit about the exercise. Unfortunately, I don’t have a magic solution to make it easier to start or keep going with. I have a very long history of starting an exercise program and eating healthy only to stop because it was boring or hard or I just didn’t feel like it.
Hating your body doesn’t help. Again, been there and done that. All that you can do is move forward from where you are right now. Put the past behind you because you can’t do anything about it. Decide that you want to feel better about yourself because you are the only person who you really will be doing it for.
And then start. In baby steps. Cut out some junk food. Go for a walk. Lift some weights. Every day just keep going. Ask for help–there are plenty of us out there who are struggling to do the same thing.
I never thought that I would be lifting weights like I am. If you had asked me even six months ago, I would have laughed at you. But now, I miss it if I stop. It didn’t give me the perfect body. But it made me feel a lot better about myself and it definitely has helped my mental state.
You have a lot of people here for you. And we all want you to succeed. Yes, you are probably an enigma–but aren’t we all? But definitely not a loser. Make the choice and just start. 🙂
I’m not expecting a solution, I’m just venting my feelings in this post.
I have worked out the who, what, when, where and how I need to change myself, I just haven’t found a strong enough why to actually go through the motions. The why is the motivation I haven’t found, hence why I need someone to physically drag me to do what needs to be done.
I do have whys, but they aren’t strong enough to drive me to actually do something about the body I hate so much.