So is it just mummy exhaustion or is there something more?
I’ve got this sore throat since Saturday, and it isn’t getting any better. Since the weekend I’ve just felt so exhausted and tired, yet most of the time I’m still on my feet doing something, afraid to stop otherwise I will fall asleep. So I decided to go to bed early last night, I was climbing the stairs to go to bed by 8.30pm, soon after my head hit the pillow I was out for the count. I wake up this morning still feeling tired, exhausted and sick, either my throat still sore. So tempted to take a sickie, and then remembering that there is no one at work and that I need to go to work today.
On top of that I feel like I’m in the dog house. For a few weeks I’ve been feeling like I’m not good enough, I can’t do everything. I’m feeling like that mum who seems to only see their child a few hours a day, and I’m feeling like the inadequate mum who seems to be never there and when I do get time, I’m too tired to play.
The last couple of weeks I’ve been so horny I felt like I want to fuck nearly every moving thing. So yesterday morning I woke up early to scratch that itch and have a play with my toys. But for some reason I feel as if I’ve done something wrong, this is the reason for feeling like I’m in the dog house. But now that, that itch has been scratched, all I want is to be held, embraced, snuggled with, to be cuddled and to know that I’m safe and cared for.