I apologise for this apology. I seem to do this far too often, write nothing for months, then when I feel like writing something, I start the post with an apology. Again, I am doing this one more time in this post.
As I have previously written before, the sexuality swing I am on seems to be very much swinging towards the asexual side of life. My desire for intimacy with Minxy or my Mistress have been non-existent. I’m not sure why they seem to stick around given my lack of desire to be with either of them.
I don’t mean to put pressure on myself to perform for each of them, or to worry about this lack of sexuality and sex drive, but I just feel there is no reason to continue with these relationships if I cannot give them the physical intimacy they each deserve.
My life feels more like an existance than living.
Once again I am running out of things to write about, other than an apology. I have read numerous articles about sexuality, libido and others. Nothing resonates with me except that I need to do something to feel alive, and NOT just existing. There is nothing that tickles my fancy to move from existing to living.
Hopefully I can find what I need.