Not sure if anyone has noticed the lack of my presence on twitter over the last few days. But that is due to a number of reasons, being that I’ve been sick which has caused me to feel very blah, unsexy and in general feeling kinda fugly about myself. And seeing other people on Twitter getting it on, well, lets say that it doesn’t help matters much, so it just becomes too much for me to handle, so I have turned off all notifications off completely, though I do occasionally check my DMs.
It’s been 7 days since I have been able to breath properly, so you can imagine what that does to one’s moods especially one that has a swelling belly. So my patience runs out very quickly, so for the last week I have just been feeling in general miserable. And I am still no better either, still stuck with the stuffy nose which is causing an irritatingly annoying cough.
With all this going through my mind, it makes me wonder how desirable am I really? I then tend to fall back into my old state of mind, that I am too fat for anyone to like me, or to even see me as a sexy Asian minx. I’m not as skinny as blah blah…despite the fact that I have a little tiny human growing inside of me. Don’t ask, the brain thinks in weird ways. And on top of that I can’t do things in the bedroom that I use to be able to do, and not being able to do these things just makes me feel inferior to everyone else, and that I am just not good enough, so who in their right mind would want me?
I just want to be touched, to be held, to feel beautiful, to feel sexy and to just be desired but being me. Nothing more, nothing less.
I know that it is easy for me to say, but this too shall pass. Being pregnant is a time of raging hormones and emotions which just make all of our inner voices so much louder. And being sick on top of it just makes things so much worse.
You are a sexy desirable woman. You are creating a human being which is amazing. Give yourself a break and try to remember that. All of us who are moms have been there. It’s frustrating. Reach out to us. We can help.
Oh hon, pregnancy hormones are a bitch. Add in being sick and unable to take any good drugs and it’s really rough. Your body is doing the most amazing work right now so don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re gorgeous just the way you are.
Feel free to email or DM me if you want to talk. Hugs.