I am honestly not sure how to go about writing this.
If you have been following me on Twitter for the last few months, you will have noticed that my tendencies towards certain genders has changed. While I was never averse to the idea of being with another man, it has come to the forefront recently.
Now I am not coming out as homosexual, but as a bisexual male. This has been building up for quite some time.
Now I am sure that you are aware of the Polyquad Squad orgasm story, where I was blindfolded and Mr N forced me to suck his cock and I deeply enjoyed it. That I guess is the start of some long & hard thinking about my sexuality.
Many months went by without so much as touching or handling a cock other than my own. So it obviously wasn’t front and centre, but my subconscious was processing.
Then in February of this year, all hell broke lose. I lost my job, took 5 weeks to find a new one, saw a psychologist for depression, was put on Fluoxetine (Prozac), and started getting help for my lack of libido.
Those events were the start of my journey of discovery and realising who I truly was.
I felt that I needed to let the “real me” out of the bag and accept my feelings rather than trying to suppress them. That has been the biggest life changing move I have made in probably a decade.
As part of the “real me” journey, I let myself explore my sexuality (with my Polyquad’s help). I now feel that I am most likely bisexual, but not bi-romantic. I am happy to touch, play with and suck a cock, but definitely could not se myself dating a man.
So I am calling myself a hetero-romantic but bisexual man. Hopefully there will be some more stories to share.
Well said, and I would echo a similar sense regarding myself. I would suggest, as a culture, we generally categorize as either/or and hardly ever as both/and. My thoughts are all of us are on a sliding scale between two opposites; dom/sub, hetero/gay, and often times it is situational.
Thanks for your thoughts, not so much, it seems to me, coming out as self-appreciation.