Unfortunately there are times in life when you need to step outside your comfort zone. However when you do so you end up running the risk of being burned. But on the other hand, you could have a massive reward. This weekend, the former happened to us.
While some circumstances can not be helped, my biggest frustration is when people say one thing, while seemingly planning an alternate outcome for themselves while leaving you out.
We had been planning dinner and drinks with a few people from Twitter, however when exceptional and unplanned circumstances occurred, an alternate plan was required. However it seems that alternate circumstances were being planned behind our backs that didn’t involve us. Or at least it felt that way.
I myself am generally a reserved person and I don’t open up for any old person. And meeting new people is one of the last things I enjoy actually doing. So to be offered an alternate option that involves meeting a large group of people, I was very hesitant about. I need to build myself up meeting new people and when you were expecting one thing but thrown another at the last minute is a huge curve ball.
However even after psyching myself up for the new plan, while getting ready it was taken from under our feet at the last minute. As Minxy and I were getting ready and confirming final details, we were told that we were not welcome any more.
What the fuck!?!
So how does one feel about that, bitter and twisted, rejected and wondering what the fuck we have done. This was the first time we had a baby free night, and at the last minute all our plans fell through. I am fucking pissed off at the moment and probably over thinking everything, but you have to wonder what the real reason is behind being told you can’t come.
My gut tells me that it is because Minxy is Asian and I’m fat and thus don’t fit into the traditional swingers mould. So for a group of people apparently so liberal, it really makes me wonder how liberal they really are. Discrimination really fucking sucks.
I haven’t named any names in particular, if they want to reveal themselves or justify their actions they are very welcome to do so. But I’m not going to out them. If they want to carry on that way, that is their prerogative, who am I to stand in their way.
So what have I learned, that swingers aren’t as liberal in their thinking as I thought they were.
