It has been over a year since we started a new swinging adventure in our world of kink. However things have changed over the last few days, and that adventure has come to an end. Although I am not here to talk about that adventure, I am here to talk about my stupid head.
The reason our adventure ended is because of my lack of libido and the fact that I feel inadequate and self sabotage virtually anything good in my life. However there seems to be a link, and that link is my head.
Some days I just wish I could cut my brain out and replace it with a normal brain:
- a brain that does not over think;
- a brain that does not assume the worst;
- a brain that does not dwell on the past;
- a brain that accepts what happened;
- a brain that does not stalk Twitter;
- a brain that does not overreact too what it sees on Twitter.
I would love a brain that has none of those negative aspects. But unfortunately that is the brain I have been dealt in life.
Now my unfortunate brain has led the awesome adventure of partner swapping awry and I have decided to end it for the health of my mind. I can’t continue to hold a group of people back from something awesome while I can’t even get mt cock up for my wife, it isn’t fair to the other 3 of the group.
Do I regret my decision, yes and no. Yes because a great time was had by all, and no because I know I need to put Minxy first. Now the reason I don’t regret my decision is because I don’t feel that it is fair to continue on an adventure with Minxy, if I am only in the right mood to sleep with a woman who isn’t my wife.
So for now, you will not be seeing any reference to swinging for us for quite some time, more likely forever because I can not handle the mental aspects of sleeping with another woman if I can’t even get in the right mood with Minxy.
my wife ask could we have sex on the weekend its been a long time since we have that sort of a relationship so that was the best time to tell her that was in chastity and would have to unlock myself so we talk about a few thing s about me been in chastity ,I ask her to be my keyholder and said that my chastity is important for me .{she agree }
On Tuesday morning before going to work i surrender my keys but that 1key on my key ring just if there a visit the energy ward .
I know this will take time she has state d that i must lock for my other interest to sex.
So swinging is an no no to my keyholder/wife .
PS can you give some advice to help as KH agree to read about been a keyholder
thank you
Hi Greg & Patricia, thanks for stopping by. It is nice to see another Aussie couple interested in male chastity.
I understand that swinging is a big no no for you at the moment. Our journey started with chastity, but then we met an absolutely lovely couple who were looking for something new in their lives. We were as well at the time.
Assuming you have Twitter, feel free to hit up Minxy (@sexyasianminx) for some tips, or look at other good resources, Thumper, Lady M, Caged Lion.