I apologise for this apology. I seem to do this far too often, write nothing for months, then when I feel like writing something, I start the post with an apology. Again, I am doing this one more time in this post. As I have previously written before, the sexuality swing I am on seems to be very much swinging towards the asexual side of life. My desire for intimacy with Minxy or my Mistress have been non-existent. I'm not sure why they seem to stick around given my lack of desire to be with either of them. I don't mean to put pressure on myself to perform for each of them, or to worry about this lack of sexuality and sex drive, but I just feel there is no reason to continue with these relationships if I cannot give them the physical intimacy they each deserve. My life feels more like an existance than living. Once again I am running ...