I'm sure it is quite obvious that I have not exactly been a cheerful person of late. I have been wondering whether I should stick with calling myself caged. I also wonder whether I can be the author of a kink and sex blog. To be honest, I am on the verge of walking away from the kink side of Twitter and the internet. This may be the end of caged as I know. Some people will say that all things are repairable, but my headspace and my cock appear to completely unrepairable at the moment. As I have said, I want to fix them, but I have no desire to go and see someone about a solution to my problems. So I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place at the moment. The rock being my lack of sexuality and libido, and the hard place being maintaining a kink & sex related blog and Twitter account. I feel I need to go with one over the other, ...
Archives for November 2016
The Real Me?
I am starting to doubt myself, my body and most of all my brain, I doubt I belong here in this kink world. I am not in the Jail Bird, a DILF, or kinky. I am just existing. Why I feel like just a being is anyone's guess. I think this is the real me. Is it because I only create virtual things as part of my job, and don't have any hobbies with hands-on aspects? Is it because I focus on the wrong thing when it comes to money? Or is it because of something else? Mrs N shared one reason I might just be existing rather than living. Her point was that I have not given myself a space to be me. I choose not to buy something because I would rather put extra money to the mortgage? Or I don't buy an object/experience because I will lose interest with it in less than a month? Or I only do something because others want to do it even though I have no ...
Feeling Flat
So is it just mummy exhaustion or is there something more? I've got this sore throat since Saturday, and it isn't getting any better. Since the weekend I've just felt so exhausted and tired, yet most of the time I'm still on my feet doing something, afraid to stop otherwise I will fall asleep. So I decided to go to bed early last night, I was climbing the stairs to go to bed by 8.30pm, soon after my head hit the pillow I was out for the count. I wake up this morning still feeling tired, exhausted and sick, either my throat still sore. So tempted to take a sickie, and then remembering that there is no one at work and that I need to go to work today. On top of that I feel like I'm in the dog house. For a few weeks I've been feeling like I'm not good enough, I can't do everything. I'm feeling like that mum who seems to only see their ...
Existing, not Living
Do you feel there are days & times of your life where time just passes you by? I know I do, and today is one of those days. I feel like all I am doing is existing rather than living. Weeks & months go by where I simply want to do things, but I honestly don't have the will or desire to do anything about them. Yes, I do things, but only out of obligation & regret if I don't do them. I wish I could feel motivated to live a life rather than just exist. Not only do I feel like this when it comes to work, but it also extends into intimacy with Minxy. I feel as though I would be better off being single and living with my parents than having a wife and child. I want to feel something, I want to feel like I am contributing to the world. Each day I go to work and I create solutions to people's problems. I contribute to the world, but ...
Being Burned, Again!
There are times you realise that you were just wasting your time. The last few days have been those kinds of days. We have been burned before. However didn't think this could happen from an "honest" couple. Apparently, they aren't so honest. Occasionally you stumble across people you feel are genuine on Twitter, and the rest are just looking for self-gratification. What I find most frustrating is those who appear to be genuine, but then change overnight into the other kind. Yes, that happened the other day with some so called "friends" from Twitter. I thought they were fair dinkum, honest people, so you go out of your way to try & help them fit in. Yet apparently, that wasn't a mutual feeling. The other day the "friends" let everyone know they were closing their account & to let them know if we wanted them to follow us from ...