For a blog that is supposedly about a couple and their kinks, the majority of posts of late have been about the lack of kinks, and this will be another one to add to the list. I really can not keep writing about a lack of sex and libido, I wonder if it is a self fulfilling negative feedback loop.
The more that I talk about it, the more that I wonder if I am actually driving my body into thinking that it is the truth, which is not something I really want to be doing. Should I be talking up my libido, and hoping that the body responds accordingly? Or could there be something else?
However I think it may be time to draw a line in the sand, cross over it, and stop talking about the negative aspect of my libido here on Minxy & caged. I suspect the negative talk is a self fulfilling feedback loop and I need to stop the negative downward spiral, I can not let it control my life for much longer. It is most likely destroying the relationship I have with Minxy, and we can not have that can we?
This is just one aspect of my life that I need to draw a line to cross over and not look back. Although I find that drawing that line is very difficult to do. No matter how much I want to draw a line, I seem to step up to it, look back, and find myself drawn back to my old ways. I can not seem to leave history as history and move on.
So I am in a constant battle with myself about drawing a line and moving forward, while hanging on to history at the same time. I feel like I am stuck in an eternal state of limbo with no way forwards or backwards.