There are daily struggles in my life, and this is the biggest of them all. I can’t see myself ever overcoming it, at least not in the near future. I loathe myself, my body, my job and my life.
I believe this has come about because of one thing I do, and that is put everyone and thing in my life above all else. Whether that is my family or friends, right down to my job & money. Everything comes first in my life and I leave the dregs for myself, including my sex life.
I wonder if this is the reason for the lack of sex drive, the lack of staying power, and the lack of desire to live in general. As for how to overcome this, I am stumped, and the solution is probably staring me right in the face. Alternatively, I probably just need to listen to those around me rather than listening to the things inside my head.
Have you had struggles like this? What did you do? Did you make it to the other side?
Written: 12 May 2015