If you have not noticed, I have been in somewhat of a funk lately. I have had little desire to maintain a Twitter account, have hardly written anything here on the blog. That is what I have shown publicly, but there is an even bigger part of my funk, and that is a lack of desire for sex or anything else.
I seem to have lost track of how long it has been. I think it has been in the order of 10-12 months. Even though I have participated in some extracurricular activities with another couple, the funk seems to disappear for those few hours, or days. But only during extracurricular play times. And once our playtime has ended, it returns just as quickly as it disappeared.
I hate my funk, and I hate that it disrupts my relationship with Minxy. I wish there was a magic wand that someone could wave over me and take my funk away.
The question is whether my funk is a mental thing, or whether it is hormone related. I really think it is a combination of both, but the bigger question is whether I want to do something about it.
When it comes to the hormone side of things, how does a 31 year old male see a doctor, and tell them that my libido is shot to hell? I should be closer to the peak of my libido than where I am, yet I have none, except when we are partner swapping. How do you explain that to a doctor?
People say that doctors have heard everything, but how do you tell your doctor your libido rushes in and your sexual funk disappears when you are with the wife of another man, but they flip as soon as our experience has ended? Has anyone shared that with their doctor?
So I have a funk that I need to overcome, and an issue with my libido that is as random as chaos, and I’m afraid to go see a professional to sort it out. I’m obviously screwed.